I am helpless I am surrounded by so many enemies. First, I am slave of my culture. From the very beginning, I was taught not to speak a lie. This became my permanent enemy. One of my friend always speaks lie. He pleases every body by his lying skill. He gives every thing by words but physically, nothing. Contrary to it, I offer more and more but, due to unskilled speaker or silence follower I am unable to please anybody. There are other enemies like- 1.not to hurt anybody by talks or behavior, 2. always trying to please others scarifying my own wishes. 3. not to be angry even if someone misbehaves. 4. always impartiality ignoring relation, cast or religion etc.
I am remembering one event. I was attending the thread ceremony of the son of a relative. To please him and to strengthen the relation, I had offered so many gifts according to my capacity. At the time of main function, I was at some distance enjoying the ceremony. I saw the relative very busy in chatting with my brother. They were gossiping very silently which I was unable to hear. Rather, they were whispering in each other's ear to hide their talks from me. I was not so pleased seeing the food material offered to eat. Rather the food which I never like was served before me and my brother. My brother was pleased with the gossip and he praised the food. This is human weakness to be pleased hearing abuses for others and praises for oneself. I was in normal position. Not knowing his mental position, I wanted to say something against the served food. My brother stopped me and again praised. I at once became mum. After the function, we came home. My brother did not tell me anything. But, he is unable to keep secrecy. Being forced by his talkative habits, he disclosed his secret talks with the very relative to some third person.The third person said everything to me. All matters were against me. I became too much annoyed. When the relative's father came to me I told him the matter. He apologized. But, his son never new my anguish.
I am remembering one event. I was attending the thread ceremony of the son of a relative. To please him and to strengthen the relation, I had offered so many gifts according to my capacity. At the time of main function, I was at some distance enjoying the ceremony. I saw the relative very busy in chatting with my brother. They were gossiping very silently which I was unable to hear. Rather, they were whispering in each other's ear to hide their talks from me. I was not so pleased seeing the food material offered to eat. Rather the food which I never like was served before me and my brother. My brother was pleased with the gossip and he praised the food. This is human weakness to be pleased hearing abuses for others and praises for oneself. I was in normal position. Not knowing his mental position, I wanted to say something against the served food. My brother stopped me and again praised. I at once became mum. After the function, we came home. My brother did not tell me anything. But, he is unable to keep secrecy. Being forced by his talkative habits, he disclosed his secret talks with the very relative to some third person.The third person said everything to me. All matters were against me. I became too much annoyed. When the relative's father came to me I told him the matter. He apologized. But, his son never new my anguish.
