KRODH (ANGER)

‘Kamat krodhobhijaayate’. When desire is not fulfilled anger develops and causes distruction.Anger creates moh, moh snatches memory, loss of memory causes destruction of budhi (wisdom) which lastly destroys the human. “Krodhaad bhavati sammohah, sammohaat smriti vibhramah; smriti bhransaad vuddhinaasho, vuddhinaashaat pranashyati.” When wisdom is lost, there remains no difference between human and animal. “Vivek heenaa pashubhih samaanaa.” In angry mood, man totally forgets what is good or bad. After anger action, only repentance remains. When everything is lost, what is the advantage of repenting? “Ab pachhtaaye hot kyaa, jab chidiyaa chug gayee khet.”
There was a king. He established a haat (Local market where shops are temporary for the day only. It may be daily, weekly or twice, thrice in a week.), where all types of goods were sold. The king used to purchase the unsold articles. One day, one Sanskrit Pundit sat in the market with a shloka, the price of which he kept one lac. No customer purchased it. At last, in the evening, the king came and unwillingly purchased the shloka. This was the shloka- “Aasanam pagu chaalanam, path kanyaa vivarjitam; pratham raatrau jagarnaam, pratham krodh nivaarjanam.” The king put the poster of the shloka on the gate of his door and memorized it. A few months later, the king handed over the administration to his most faithful minister and went on a long journey alone. He changed his face and started the journey in concealed outfit. He travelled so many countries and places of pilgrimages. After travelling many years, the king came to a neighbor country. The king of that country was his enemy. His spy told him about the king in disguise. He thought to kill him. The king in disguise was invited by the king of that country. Under the dining table and chairs, men with weapons were sitting to kill the king. The dining table and chairs were covered by clothes. The king was always remembering the shloka. The first stanza’s meaning is, ‘Before eating one should shake the dining chairs’. As soon as the chair was shaken, one man came out. The king was brave and always alert. He killed all men one by one. Eating the delicious food, he went to the bed. The meaning of third stanza is,’ one should awake in the first night at new place’. Therefore, he did not sleep. In the mid night, he heard a woman’s weeping voice. At once, he drew his sword from the shield and wanted to chase the voice. Suddenly, he recalled the 2nd stanza, which meant to remain away from the girl in the journey. He stopped and thought to watch the situation. The woman’s voice disappeared and whispering sound of so many persons came in his ears. They were king’s men. They were planning to kill him the next day and capture his country. The king came out silently in the late night and informed his army chief to call all armies. Early in the morning, he attacked at the neighbor country and defeating it arrested the king. The king entered his palace silently in the mid night to give surprise to his beloved queen. To his great annoyance! he saw a youth sleeping beside his queen. In uncontrolled anger, he drew his sword to kill the both. At once, his eyes went on the shloka written on the door. The meaning of the fourth stanza is, ‘One should control the first anger’. The king put his sword in the shield and returned. In the morning, he came to his kingdom in full form with huge army, accepting welcome ceremonies in his honor as winner king. On the palace gate, the queen with her twelve-year-old handsome son came to welcome with garland and worshipping materials. The king asked about the boy and knowing that he was his own son became too much pleased. His son was in the womb when he was departing. The king knew the importance of the shloka. The price he had paid seemed very few for such a valuable substance.

Sometimes, the anger is shown for the benefit of a person. Externally, it seems cruelty but affection is hidden internally. It is for the welfare of the person. Gyanis adopt anger for public welfare. Parent’s anger is for reforming the children. It is totally reverse to the enmity anger. Lord Parasuraam and sage Durbaasaa have adopted anger for the welfare of the universe, though they are realized souls. I have heard about several saints who in the first look seem very angry. When anyone tolerates his anger, he is blessed by his pouring grace. 

DESIRE (KAAM)

There are three great thieves, which live in the heart to steal the jewel, the knowledge (gyan). They are kaam (desire), krodh (anger) and lobh (greed). Hence, O, man! Awake, awake. ‘Kaamah krodah tathaa lobhah hridi tishthanti taskaraah; Gyaan ratnaaphaaraay, tasmaat jaagrat jaagrat.’ Kaam is the cause of all sorrows. When I fail to achieve a desire, I become angry. ‘Kaamat krodhobhijaayate’. Desire is the root. Keep yourself away from desire. Do the work what is lotted to you. Willful new creation is prohibited. Make yourself expert and skilled in the profession what you have got by birth. Change of profession is not allowed. One can get good knowledge of other profession but cannot be genius. Only exceptionally, one can be able to top in another field. Paternal quality is inherited in the child. Abhimanyue got the knowledge of entering into the chakrabyooh, in the very womb. Desires are endless. When one is fulfilled, another arises. Unfulfilled desire is the root cause of rebirth. Liberation is achieved when desire ends. After death, soul becomes free to choose the place and family. Naturally, it will take birth at the place where the unfulfilled desire can be satisfied. Hence becoming will less should be the ultimate aim.
There was an old man. He had no issue. He was a great devotee of Lord Shiva. He had only one will to have a son. We have belief in lord Shiva. When we desire something, which seems impossible in normal life, we go to lord Shiva. We go to Deoghar (Babadham). Lord Shiva’s ling there is called kamna ling. There we start worshipping lord Shiva. People stay there, until Shiva does not come in the dream. This is called ‘dharna’. The old man performed dharna. Shiva came in the dream and blessed. He came home. He got two sons. The eldest became spoiled. He was so cruel that he thrashed his parents daily. Now, he cursed himself to have the son. He prayed, repented and wept too much. At last, he got another son. This became similar to his father, a great devotee of lord Shiva. People say that lord angrily gave the first. However seeing his pitiable condition, showed mercy and gave the second, his devotee.

EMOTION

Emotion has come directly from God. It is the feeling originated from heart. The place of God in the body is heart. The spiritual heart is in the right side where as the biological in the left. We always hear the word emotional blackmailing. Emotional person is always loser regarding worldly affairs. However, he is gainer in spiritual matter. People, who use mind more, become clever and matured in the worldly matters. Nevertheless, they are far away from heaven. It is not meant to prohibit anybody to use mind. It is higher spiritual matter pertaining to heart and mind. You can easily cheat sentimental person. When emotion is evoked, he can sacrifice everything. In the history, emotional blackmailing events are in abundance when impassive (cruel) persons have snatched the genuine right of sentimental persons. Shahjahan had four sons- Dara, Suja, Aurangjeb and Murad. Dara was the eldest. He was a great scholar. He had all heavenly qualities. He could not think to harm his brothers even in dreams. When Shahjahan became old, he thought to make Dara his successor. Aurangjeb was very ambitious, opportunist, selfish and heartless. He imprisoned his father. Defeating his brothers, he captured the throne. Latter he imprisoned and killed them. Kunti had a son by sun while she was unmarried. He was Karna. He was in the opposite side in the great Mahabharata battle. Lord Krishna was all rounder and genius in every field. He knew the modus operandi to manage things. He knew the strength of Karna. Karna had energy and emotions both. He was the greatest donator of that time. By birth, he had kabach (bulletproof jacket) and kundal (earring) to protect him always. These were cleverly begged by Lord Indra to save his son Arjun. Latter, inspired by Lord Krishna, Kunti went to Karna in the mid night. She disclosed his birth mystry. Karna became aware with the fact that Pandavas were his own brothers and Kunti was his mother. He promised not to kill them except Arjun. Thus, Karna was emotionally blackmailed. His sharpness of enmity was retarded. However, Pandavas were ignorant of these things. In their minds, Karna was their grave enemy and they tried their best to kill him. They fought against him with full zeal and won. In the trap of emotion, Karna was defeated and killed.
I am recalling an event of my childhood. There was a very clever man. Those days, my father was normally in angry mood due to age. The clever man frequently came to my father, whenever required anything. First, he used to oil his head. Then he rubbed the whole body with oil with full strength sincerely, talked sweetly and abused his enemies. Occasionally, he offered some lemons, pickle, papayas, guavas, bananas and betel nuts. Sometimes he offered live fishes of the nearby pond, of which my father was very fond. After doing all these services, he asked for some rupees and my father gave him gladly. On occasions, we were angry but my father was hypnotized and bound to help him.
‘Guru sushrukhaya vidyaa.’ Arjun was not the son but the most obedient disciple of guru Dronacharge. His son Ashwatthama got less knowledge compared to Arjun. Guru was always eager for Arjun to be the world’s best archer, not for his own son. Contrary to this, we are very selfish. On such occasions, I always wanted my sons’ presence. When my sons were living at Hanumannagar, I also visited and stayed occasionally and after sometime started to live with them. While teaching some new things, I always sought my sons’ presence. When Dipu went bathroom, I stopped teaching. This is my selfishness but in the absence of Arjun.

GENTLENESS

There was an old black cobra in a forest. It had made its permanent abode in a deep big hole just beside the footpath passing through the mid of the forest. Hearing foot sound of the passersby, it bit them. Its poison was so sharp that its bitten creature hardly lasted few minutes. In its lifetime, it bit thousands of creatures. Now it was about hundred year old. The older the snake faster the poison. Once the great sage, Narad passed through the forest. His disciples told him about the cobra. He thought to preach the snake.
Here, you can ask some questions like how a man can talk with the snake. How a snake can hear the preaching. Why it should obey and why the sage was not afraid of the furious snake. The answer is very simple but not everyone can understand & believe things. It is a highly spiritual matter. Only the person who believes can understand and who understands can believe. I have seen people talking with their pets. Mother talks with her newborn baby and even with her baby in the womb. Abhimanyu got the knowledge of Chakrabyuh in the very womb. On discovery and so many other channels, we see person loving furious animals, which one cannot imagine in his normal life. We have heard the name of Kakbhusundi who was preaching people. Parrots were talking in Sanskrit scholarly in Mandan Mishra’s home. What is this? This is intuition. Maharshi Raman experienced the feelings of animals like cows, dogs, peacocks. In his ashram, all animals are worshiped. We have heard saints knowing animals voice. When I love and wish welfare of anybody, the wave reaches to him whether it is two footed, four footed or plants. Indian scientist Dr J C Bose proved the theory that plants also laugh and weep seeing friends and foe respectively like us. Wicked persons gave a house to lord Buddha. It was full of snakes. Lord Buddha spent the whole night among these poisonous creatures. He was not harmed at all.
Maharshi Narad sat there with his disciples. The snake came near him and bowed down. Narad gave guru-mantra- not to bite anybody and departed. After a good time he returned by the same rout. Disciples reminded about the cobra. Narad stopped there. They searched and found the snake with so many wounds on the body. When asked about the wound it told the story. It had stopped biting. Passersby threw stones on it. That was the reason of being wounded. Narad knew the reason. He again preached to the snake. Everyone should be gentle by heart. We should always follow ahinsa (non violence). It should be by mind, speech and work. But the message should not be mild. When the message is mild, people under estimate you. Your working is disturbed. You face too much difficulties in performing your duty according to rule. Whereas fifty percent problems fly away without effort, by rough and tough message. Internally we should have love for the whole world but externally behavior should be like tough person. Father’s tough behavior is for the benefit of the child. Mother’s cruelty is only to reform her dearest son. The little baby does not know the harm effect of fire. It is attracted by the red charming colour. Mother forbids touching it. The child feels mother’s cruelty. When it grows and become matured, feels the internal unselfish love of the parent. The feeling reaches climax when the baby becomes youth and father. I am recalling one event. There was an old man of the age of fifty-five. His son was twenty-seven year old. His grandson was one year old. Once the youth was on the roof. Suddenly it began to pour. The old man called his son repeatedly but he didn’t come down. The old man felt very sad but thought a solution. He went in the room and took his grandson. He came out with the little baby and stood in the rain. The youth shouted and in angry mood came down. He took the baby and ran into the room.

UNKNOWN BRAVERY

‘TAVAT BHAYASYA BHETABYAM YAVAT BHAY NANAAGAT; AAGATAN TU BHAYAN BEEKSHYA PREETI KURYAT YATHOCHITAM’. More often, I hear the name of some renowned personality. I have hesitation to meet him. Accidently I meet him. I interact with him. When I depart, someone tells me the name of the famous person with whom I had become so familiar. I suddenly become surprised. Unknowingly I do some miraculous job, which is impossible, if I know the things. I am telling you an event of Jagdish Bhai. First of all Kari Bhai went to Mumbai. He settled there. He was a taxi driver. The taxi was on per day income basis. The owner gave certain percentage of the income to him. Latter he took so many persons to Mumbai. Jagdish Bhai also went with him. In the very next morning he reached Mumbai, he saw a man throwing his empty bucket from the line of the water tap and putting his own in the place. He has good health and his height is about 7’0”. That time his age was twenty-one and he was a good wrestler. The event evoked his male hood and challenged his poise. He jumped over the man and gave him so many stronger blows on his mouth with his feasts. The strength of the village pure milk and ghee made the man senseless. The crowd saw the scene and clapped loudly. Kari Bhai was sleeping. The noise awoke him. He came out and saw the scene. The man was below and Jagdish Bhai was sitting on his chest. In the beginning, he did not pay much attention. When he came nearer, he saw the face of the man below. He was stunned with hands and feet swollen. The man below was the don of the street and he belonged to the notorious Leopard Gang. The gang had captured the whole city. It was in the root of all crimes of the city. The name was enough to terrorize a man. He caught Jadish’s hand and drew him inside. He freed the man and apologized. The matter could be settled & cooled only after Jagdish’s most humble apologies and surrender before the gang.
I recall one event of my own. I was a fresher of Sindri. One evening some seniors came to my hostel. They entered into so many rooms and started ragging the freshers. By luck, one senior who came to my room was known to me. He took me out and ordered to rag the Nepali students of my neighbor room. I entered the Nepali student’s room. All stood up. A few remained sitting. In a grave mood, I reached to the sitting students. Everyone stood except one. Salute to my boldness! I reached to the sitting boy. In an angry mood ordered the boy to stand up. The boy also stood up. Latter I took introduction of all the students and silently started to come out of the room. In the mean time, the senior who had sent me to rag, came and started to laugh loudly. The students who remained sitting after my entry were seniors. The last student whom I forced to stand was the boss of all. As soon as my identity disclosed, the boss caught my hand. However, my known student freed me. I fled at once. After one day, the seniors called me in their hostel. I was pardoned after humble apology from my side and rigidness of my known senior.

PHYSICAL LABOUR AND EGO.

'TYAKTA LAJJA SUKHEE BHAWET'. I recall an event of the year 1990. Vimaljee was five, Dipu seven and Nilu nine year old. I was living in a rented house at Punaichak. The landlord was a fine person. He had one son Gopal and three daughters. Like his name, Gopal was very popular and simple boy. He respected me too much. When I came to Patna for the first time to live, I stayed with Barunjee in 1990 January at Hanumannagar. I wanted a rented house near secretariat where I was then posted. Ashokjee was then living at Punaichak. He was also posted in secretariat. He was with his mother, two brothers and two sisters. I stayed the night with him to see a house for rent at Punaichak. Next morning Ashokjee and I went to meet Satyadeo Babu to take his house on rent. The house was vacated by Er. R.C. Chaudhary who had gone to Birpur to join Road Subdivision. There was one famous J.E., in that subdivision, without writing about whom the article will be incomplete. He was a veteran man. The SDO and EE were in his feast. He used to visit local leaders daily and got advantage of the nearness with them. Due to him, Chaudharyjee’s charge became late. He propagated false cast politics against him.
When we went to Satyadeo Babu, he was out of station. Gopal and his cousin were there. His mother was behind the curtain. I was in need and he was also in search of a tenant. I accepted the rent. I called Aditya, my 2nd brother in law who was residing at Makhaniya Kuan. He was doing postgraduate course in Maithili from Patna University. Professor Amresh Pathak was his head. My family (wife and three sons) was at Birpur at that time. Gopal gave one cot and Aditya brought another from his old lodge. After some months, all materials were brought from Birpur. Wife and children had already come to Karmauli a few days before. They came to Patna just after the materials were brought.
Gopal was very noble and egoless. Though he was landlord’s son, he with his cousin Uday did the whole painting work of the house. I was amazed to see his hard work like a labour. He taught that one should not be ashamed in doing one's work. I remember Gandhi’s work at Johannesburg. In Gandhi’s ashram so many renowned persons were living. Everyone was allotted a piece of land. They were producing some types of crops for their food. There was no toilet and everyone collected the night soil in a pot and disposed it in the morning. The new comers didn't know the rule and Gandhijee himself did the same. But Baa didn't allow Bapu and took the duty. Once Baa's face language was not normal while disposing the same. Gandhijee didn't tolerate it and caught her hair and dragged. While writing his atma-katha he wrote the event and repented. Everybody should do some physical labour; whether he is great scholar, no matter. Mental and physical works should be done side by side. In the present context, when people have become more conscious towards their health, it is too much remarkable. Every intellectual should remember Gandhi’s lesson. I recall my Ranchi period. I and my friend Surendra Prasad lived together at Doranda. This is the period of my first joining at Ranchi. My office was in the barrack just before combined office building. Surendra was in another office adjacent to my office. We met the next day of joining and became familiar. I had taken a two-roomed flat on rent. Surendra was staying with a distant relative. He enquired me about my residence and showed his will to live together. I was also searching a partner. The rent was a bit more which I thought heavy according to my income. More over it was a two-roomed flat and only one room was sufficient for a bachelor like me. I gave another room to surendra. We started self-cooking. There was problem of water in the flat. There was a water-tape on the road before my house. There was no force of water and a big crowd always gathered there. We started taking water from a coolie who brought some buckets of water for us from a nearby well and we paid fifty paisa for each bucket. Sometimes the coolie became absent. We were then very troubled. Anyhow, we brought one-bucket water from roadside tape and did essential works. There was a hotel in the nearby market where we took breakfast and lunch. The hotel owner was very obedient. He became pleased to see us because we were spending more on our meals. Those days Chandramohan was a PG Teacher in the Central School at Ramgarh Cantonment and was also doing PHD under a Ranchi University professor. He came to me very often when he came to Ranchi and stayed with us. He is a man of the land and has no ego and complex. He felt the problem. He went to the well, took bath there and brought two-bucket water for me. This was height of demoralizing and I also started to go to the well for water purpose. Thus, my water problem was solved and my ego decreased a little bit.

neki kar dariyaa me daal

To-day, I met a man. He was eighty year old. He was repenting all the time while talking. I felt he was betrayed by his brother. According to him he sacrificed all his possessions to make his brother a doctor. But now his brother doesn't even talk to him. He (doctor) lives seperately with his wife and children. The old man with his wife and seven children is in wretched condition. He was thinking that the doctor would bring a very able bridegroom for his daughter. But the thought remained in the mind itself. Just after getting MBBS degree,doctor became seperate. He went to Madhubani to live with his wife. There he has purchaged a very big house. He has roaring practice. He has constructed a very beautiful house at his home also. He has purchased a flat at patna. He tours the whole world. On 1st January he goes for picnic to Singapur and enjoys the whole week there. He spends 1.5 lacs in seven days. Here in the village his brother lives like a beggar. This is the world. Don't think any thing about return. Neki kar dariya me daal.